I have a new home! Drop by deadcowgirl.com for some milk and cookies. It’s not as morbid as you think.
See you there!
In my line of work, I deal with requests for humiliation all the time. Erotic, verbal, physical, or psychological, such as racial, religious and occasionally financial. But even the most hard core submissive has limits – as well as hot buttons. Before we play, these are discussed at length. After 15 years, I know what …
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Today was actually ok. They fought. We rolled our eyes. DaddyO and I snuck off for a little mommy and daddy time. NookieNookie! And basically, we started to get downright giddy about the fact that the visit is Almost Over. They even left and went back to their hotel early! We may indeed survive yet …
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Lately, so many of my friends have had issues breastfeeding their newborns. I feel lucky, that not only was I able to breastfeed after all the breast surgery I’ve had, and that he didn’t have a latching problem, my supply was OK etc, but also, that I didn’t lose my supply because of the miscarriage …
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Or as a friend just asked… Did you kick a dog recently? Friday, four days after our miscarriage my inlaws showed up for a long planned visit. Worst. Timing. Ever. Or maybe not. It’s hard to dwell on your own problems when two people are sitting in your family room bickering. Loudly. Really. Every time …
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We weren’t very secretive about the whole IVF thing this time. (READ: Cocky) Things went so well last time, and it just seemed like it was easier to have our friends by our side as we went through it. We figured we were only telling people we wouldn’t mind knowing we had a miscarriage. You …
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When you are pregnant, no matter how much you wanted to be pregnant, you can’t help but look at the hormonal acne and the bloat and sigh. I really want a baby, but WHY does it have to come with all these lovely side effects? In fact, I want a baby so much I did …
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I had given up this blog and returned to a previous personal one. It was nice for a bit. I wrote fairly openly about ourIVF and other issues and although all my friends know the URL, most no longer read it because it had been left alone for so long. It was like returning to …
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It’s nearing midnight. We’re preparing for surgery and the nurse is asking questions rapid fire. I’m dazed and in shock. It’s happening so fast I respond in the only way I know how. “Do you have any heart issues?” It’s broken. “And blood issues?” It’s coming out? Rapidly. “Mental or psychological issues?” Self deprecating humor …
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At least with the FIRST 2ww, waiting from retrieval to BFP, so much is going on, I was too distracted to stress all that much. First there’s the retrieval, the the fertilization report the next day, the the three day report, then the transfer, then the peeing on sticks, which thankfully, turned positive 4 days …
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